Sunday, August 29, 2010

Week One: Part Deux

With the first week of school already gone, it's beyond my comprehension how it went so well. Of course, since my memories from last year's first month are suppressed and blacked out, I have nothing to compare it to - but something tells me this year is starting off way better. With all of TFA's drilling of teacher tactics over the first summer, and just given the fact that you have no idea what the hell you are getting yourself into, you begin your first year of teaching with a teacher personality that is not 100% you. Last year it took a few months for me to get past that and start actually acting like myself, and it's amazing how your students respond to it. Maybe being in this community makes them more aware of it, but these kids are incredibly good at weeding through the bullshit and always know which adults are being genuine to them. I've never been so comfortable in front of my class as I was this week, because what my students saw was my 100% real personality, and I think they could tell. For instance, my bathroom pass this year is a toilet seat I bought at Home Depot for $7 - to which my friends respond when I tell them: "Wow, you're THAT teacher?" Yes, I am, and I enjoy it.

Overall things couldn't be going better; I'm even remembering student names way faster this year. In some ways it's going TOO well though, like how already I've been asked by new students to be the girls' volleyball coach, the cross-country coach, and the advisor for a student service club. I still haven't officially said no to any of them, because I recently learned that I'm incapable of saying the word No. I'm already this year on the coaching staff for our boys' soccer team, so hopefully I'll have my act together by November. It may take that long for me to figure out how to plan for three classes and still have a normal bedtime. If my Precalculus class weren't so awesome, I would complain and ask the math department to redistribute the curriculum assignments. Why, after all, does nearly every teacher have to teach three different classes? Doesn't it make more sense if we divided the classes so that nearly everybody only has one class curriculum? I dare not bring that up in the department meetings though, because I would rather not have a long conversation about what is and isn't fair - as it turns out, we distribute the Algebra classes so that every teacher gets an equal "experience" with it, and no one is spared the joy of having at least one class that pushes you to your breaking point. It's funny how after only two days of school it was clear that that class would be my 3rd period Algebra. The optimist in me doubts that it will be that bad though. After all, I'm an amazing second year teacher now! Ha.

All of our new TFA teachers at Richmond - two of them math teachers - are just like little self-esteem boosters for returning TFAers. I'm sure they are told, just like we were, to reach out to older staff, and they make even me feel like the smartest, most experienced teacher they've ever met. This of course, is supported by the image I have been creating for myself in department meetings. My one goal this year was to try to get our math teachers more aligned in what they teach so that the movement of students from one math teacher to another wouldn't be so drastic a change for them. Plus, we could compare results from tests and discuss things that work and didn't work in class - actually work as a team, I mean. So all these two first-year TFAers have seen of me is my standing in front of our veteran math department teachers explaining how I think we should all align our teaching plan to something that looks like mine. I presented my year-long unit plan, and to my surprise, everybody jumped on board, even saying that mine makes way more sense than the one our district tries to make us do. Or maybe I've just been fostering such good relationships for a year that they feel like they can't argue with me. Either way, the job gets done! So, in the familiar theme of making more work for myself, I am now responsible for sending out all my materials to our Algebra and Geometry teachers, and our plan is to all make common assessments together so that we will essentially all be teaching the same math class (what a concept) and then we can actually compare student results between teachers. Talking one-on-one with one of our new teachers, he said that it looks like I'm pretty much the department head without the title. I laughed pretty hard, but I think I'm going to just let him think that I'm amazing. What he doesn't know won't hurt him, right?

Saturday, August 21, 2010

"The Case Against Summer Vacation"

Believe it or not, I am sick and tired of being super lazy and not having a job to go do every day. The crazy thing is that I know for a fact that our students feel the same way. These are not the families and the community that goes on big summer vacations or goes to summer camps. Instead, they are bored out of their mind in Richmond - a few perhaps with summer jobs - waiting for school to start up again. It is interesting then to consider the fact that the "summer vacation" system for public education creates serious problems for our students retaining information year to year. For less impoverished communities, parents usually pick up the slack over summer, and the effect is not as clear; for our students here, who are possibly the first generation to go to high school in America, I doubt they have heard a word of math since June 10. I could go on, but my thoughts are in agreement with a Time article from earlier this month that I'm sure you would rather read: http://www.time.com/time/nation/article/0,8599,2005654,00.html

Only three days until school starts and I have found that it is just as stressful knowing exactly what I am getting myself into than not knowing at all. I've got a lot to do before Tuesday. At least I can say that I have a better grasp of things than our new teachers (we have 12 this year). Speaking of which, I got my classroom key yesterday and took advantage of it by trying to claim all of the good desks from a vacant class across the hall. Unfortunately one of our new math teachers caught me in the act of stealing desks from what was apparently her new room. Oops. I don't feel THAT bad since I know that's how I got all of my wonderfully broken desks last year. But don't worry - our administration assured us that the new desks would be here in December. Ha.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Waiting For Superman

...is the name of a documentary coming out this fall that looks like an emotionally real take on the American education system. Michelle Rhee in the trailer is a TFA alum, so I predict the movie will be pretty much in line with the mission of Teach For America. Go see it!

Monday, August 9, 2010

The Final 100 Miles (Subtitle: Going Out with a Bang... of Thunder)

When attempting 275 miles through the state of Washington, you become very experienced very quickly. With much time in silence to think, a lot of it gets devoted to thoughts about what I would do differently if I were to do this again (which we do, believe it or not). Between the both of us, bouts of squeezing between snow and rocks and other similar terrain maneuvers had already claimed from us a few clothing items originally hung on the outside of our packs to dry - our friends from the cabin back on the fifth day promised that they would keep an eye out for the missing Croc, but believe it or not, after we headed back out on the trail with a new pair, one got lost again (and yes, it "got lost," because I wasn't the one that lost it...). I would say that the trail also took some of our dignity, because after some two weeks camping, there still never felt like there was a "proper" way to shit in the woods. The 10th time is just as unnatural feeling as the first.

Upon heading into Stehekin after our last step on the trail, we assessed the monetary damage caused and listed off all the other things claimed by the trail: a ripped shoelace, two broken backpack clips, a missing tent anchor, and two self-inflating sleeping pads ripped to shreds. I'm sure we looked a little stupid with our sleeping pads tied on the outside of our packs looking like they're ready to explode - the problem with a self-inflating anything is that when it rips, it always wants to self-inflate... and then doesn't hold the air when you need it. Case in point: that is one thing I would have done differently. No self-inflating sleeping pads. But just when we were going to curse the trail for taking these numerous things from us, we remembered that the trail had also graciously - and coincidentally - given us a pair of Crocs that someone else had dropped, so Jackie wasn't left shoeless anymore. Nearing the end, I was angry that I would not get to use my $200-worth of breathable Gore-Tex rain gear, but we'll get to that in a bit.

Let's instead start back at Baring, WA. The night's sleep was good on a (semi) real bed, and despite their pleas to stay another day and enjoy ourselves, there's only so much small town I can take. Don't get me wrong - they were amazingly hospitable and super friendly, but my ideal day of relaxation has an entirely different setup in my mind. One man in particular strangely seemed to have everything in common with us, telling us restaurants to go to in Oakland when we get back, and talking all about his involvement in their school district (how he ended up in Baring I don't know), and in the end he was nice enough to give us a ride eight miles up the road in his refinished 1931 Chevrolet for a better hitchhiking spot. Upon reading that last sentence I feel I need to clarify that it was totally a friendly offering and not creepy at all. However, this was the beginning of one of the strangest days of my life.

We were surprised to be picked up once again within five minutes of throwing up the thumb, and this time we got to sit in the backseat, bumming a ride with an older man who was apparently visiting his mother. It took thirty seconds to realize that this guy was a talker, which was fine, but the comments were taking an interesting turn. After brief introductions of what we were doing and why we needed the ride, and hearing about his mother and his cats at home (that should have been the first signal), he told us that "it's a very important time in the world right now and there are things that we should be aware of," which was strange considering I hadn't seen any major stories in the newspaper that morning. He then asked us if we knew there were other races in the world, which seemed like a very odd question, but yes, we did know that Caucasians were not the only race. He was elated to find that we agreed, and then plunged into a 20 minute speech about reptilian mind control and how there are other planets with other life forms and that people with cat eyes were really from the cat race and the government is covering everything up and how he and his sister were abducted by aliens and how he has a hole in the back of his head from the experience... I really can't do justice to it at all and wish I had had a tape recorder. But he assured us that we can learn all about "the truth" online by watching videos of some guy. Luckily, all he needed was a little "hmm" and "uh-huh" once in a while to carry the conversation all by himself, and my fear mainly came from the thoughts of what would happen if he turned around and saw my uncontrollably smiling face. This guy was f***ing crazy! I could barely contain my laughter when, in the middle of telling us about the alien spaceships going into another dimension and flying into Mt. Adams, he would stop to say "ooh look, a squirrel!" in the exact same tone of voice. I have never been that long in the presence of a crazy person before. I think he misunderstood us and thought that had found some people that knew all about this stuff. There were some awkwardly tense moments when he realized that we actually had no idea what the hell he was talking about, but he did in the end graciously drop us off at Stevens Pass and we saw him pick up another stranger some 50 yards down the road. When we were safely out of the car, I laughed harder than I have laughed in years. I knew these people existed on the internet, but in real life?!

Our laughs apparently attracted a man who I swear to you was Chris Farley reincarnated (think: "Fat man in a little [hiking outfit]"), and who somehow felt obligated to tell us his life story about what brought him to the trail and how he needs to lose the 50 pounds he gained in medical school. Upon reflection, there are two types of hikers: the ones that blaze by you without a word, and the ones that find a confidant in every other hiker they meet, sharing completely irrelevant things just for conversation. In short, hikers can be super weird. We headed towards the trailhead wondering what was attracting these people to us, but were intercepted by a construction worker having lunch, who asked us if we were hikers (duh), how the trail was, and if we had seen any wildlife. Hiking is apparently a very social activity!

Things returned to relatively normal, aside from the fact that our newly stuffed packs were making their extra five pounds (at least) known at every step. Planning for how much food to bring and how many days you'll be hiking is sort of a vicious circle because if you agree on a leisurely hiking pace to save your body, you're looking at more food, which is more weight, which will slow you down even more, which may require more days of food, and so on. Luckily we did not hit the incredibly challenging terrain until a few days in, so our bags were at least a little lighter. According to the official Wilderness Press Pacific Crest Trail guide, this 100-mile section ranks as number two in difficulty for the whole of the trail, falling short only of the John Muir Trail section in California (which is next on the list, seriously). By the pictures you may be able to tell that this part of the hike was dominated mostly by Glacier Peak; the trail does a large semicircle around it due to potential avalanche hazards if you get too close, and as a result, the trail took us on less than happy trips steeply switchbacking up one mountain only to steeply switchback down the other side, cross a creek, and head straight up the next one. Once again, thank goodness we were distracted by good weather and spectacular views.

That being said, though, I suddenly remember my vow to send the PCT Association an email and a piece of my mind. I would hesitate to even call this part of the trip a trail at all, with how unkempt it was. Every person we met hiking in the opposite direction would give us their take on what lay ahead for us; they all said something different - identifying them quickly as optimists or pessimists - but they seemed to all be variations on the theme of "swimming through overgrowth" and "climbing over a million blowdowns." What they really should have told us is that we would be bushwhacking and climbing over trees in the pouring rain. I can't complain too much since if it hadn't rained, we wouldn't have gotten the full outdoor experience and I would have replaced the expensive rain gear with a plastic poncho on my next outing. Let's just say I was glad to have more than a poncho after the skies opened. Bushwhacking is particularly frustrating when everything is soaking wet. In all, that was just not a very good day for us considering that thanks to my wanting to press on, we ended up having to camp in the middle of the trail and sleep without pads since ours were soaked through. That was the only day where I felt our friendship was at stake. I'll spare you the details.

The final days of the expedition after the thunderstorm were interesting for a number of reasons, not least of which was because our toilet paper was soaked all the way through. Don't worry though, we improvised with pages torn from a crossword puzzle magazine that I brought for boredom. Let me tell you - not the same. It's also quite an uncomfortable feeling putting on wet socks and wet boots in the morning. The sunlight was super orange all day and Jackie insisted on a number of occasions that it smelled like a campfire, but I just thought she was hallucinating about the grilled bacon cheeseburgers that we promised would be our first "real" meals when we got there. We finally made it into Stehekin to find truckloads of volunteer firefighters heading to the nearby lightning fire (to which we thought, oh, duh), and enjoyed one extra night camping in the small resort town through smoky haze and still more rain than we would have liked. Still, the first restaurant meal and real shower in over a week made everything okay. We slept 14 hours that night in food-induced comas, thanks to the Stehekin bakery's cinnamon rolls the size of my face, our celebratory beers, and our dinner of burgers and steak nachos. And suddenly I remembered what it's like to be full.

My mom was gracious enough to make the three-hour drive - north this time - to pick us up, and it was back to reality real quick. We recounted the two (and a half) black bears that we saw, along with the elk, deer, countless marmots and hummingbirds. It's funny how quickly you forget about the swarms of mosquitoes when the bites are gone; I will say though, the new worst organism in the world is the biting black fly. They do not respond to DEET and are relentless. I recalled the newest songs that made their trail debut in my head, including Sound of Music - I think you can guess which song. And then upon getting home, we checked out the list of the newest members of Teach For America, seeing who was placed at our school and where they came from, of course being super judgmental on whether or not we think they'll "make it" at our respective schools. They'll be fine at my school but at Jackie's I'm not so sure... She was the one you may recall last year who had some 60 students in one biology class, and it took about three weeks to get it fixed. Our class rosters are now accessible online, so if nothing changes, my biggest class is Precalculus with 33 students and all my other classes - freshman classes - are 25 students or less. Woohoo!

I had thought that three and a half weeks of time to think to myself would give me some epiphany about my life plan and what I want to do, but really it seemed to just make me relax in the fact that I still don't know for sure, and to take it day by day or year by year or however long it takes. It's the planning gene in me that makes me feel uneasy about uncertainty, but I've realized that I'm in no rush (yet) and it's much more satisfying doing things that I know I want to do - even if they're short term ventures. Plus, I get good pictures out of it:













75 Miles Farther (Subtitle: Piece of Cake)

Maybe it's because we had seen the trail at its (near) worst or maybe it's because we became fitter and stronger in nine days, but the middle section of this trip between I-90 and Highway 2 seemed super easy. In truth, I think it has more to do with the fact that we only took about five days and as such, required significantly less food (but more than we originally had planned since we counted calories and found that we were only giving ourselves about 2500 per day on a 4000-5000 calorie activity). Snickers bars abound, we started with a two-day detour around previously fire-damaged terrain, reminding us that there are some pretty awesome trails in the Cascades even off the Pacific Crest Trail. Although it was the shortest section, it produced some of the best scenery and the most pictures. This was supplemented by the fact that I learned that my camera has a pretty awesome panorama feature that I am still kicking myself for not figuring out for the first 100 miles. Some clouds on the first day gave us some eerie photos but after that, the weather was amazing once again. There was one stream crossing where I had to lasso a boulder with our nylon rope in order to cross safely, but other than that, everything went super smoothly - especially with our addition of trekking (skiing) poles. This of course allowed me to experience deep thought on the trail, which helped a lot in thinking about how I will run my class next year, but ultimately ended with various Disney songs getting stuck in my head, playing to the beat of my footsteps. And yes, I am totally embarrassed about that.

At the section's end we reached Stevens Pass ski resort where we had to hitchhike to a town about 20 miles away, and this being my first ever hitchhiking experience, I was a little worried that our reliance that nice, sane people would pick us up was not a smart move; after all, we mailed all of our resupplying food to Baring, a small town of only a couple hundred, with plans to stay at a local "hiker haven." To my surprise, we were picked up within five minutes by some other Washington hikers, very nice and very sane. At least at that point I would have said hitchhiking is one of the easiest, coolest things ever. More on that in the next post. In the meantime, we were dropped off at the Baring general store/restaurant/post office and spent the remainder of the day either there for multiple meals or across the street at the Dinsmore's bunkhouse for hikers. By this point, the multiple groups and individuals that were en route to Mexico along the trail all advertised their place as one to stop at. We had to stop anyway to resupply with food, and these people are gracious enough to check their P.O. Box every single day for packages of hiker food to be held until their owners arrive. The people were super nice and we'll call it a "simple" town. When they found out we were teachers, they talked all about their local graduating high school class of four - simply because that's all the seniors they had - and I just had to laugh thinking of how different it would be. I also wonder who gets a better education: the students of Baring, WA or the students of Richmond, CA?

The photos describe the trail best, so I'll leave you with my favorites: